Category: Other

  • Mancrush Friday – Sam Riley.

    With the knowledge that the film adaptation of On The Road is safely heading our way I thought I’d take today to talk about Sam Riley, the Yorkshire born lad who doesn’t look right without a popped up collar and a cigarette dangling from his lips.

    Riley has a habit of picking these characters; Pinky, Milo, Ian, strung out, dark anti-heroes of the purest order but each has their own quips and characteristics. I’ve read that this all had to change to take on Kerouac’s thinly veiled character Sal Paradise and I’m really looking forward to it (despite how disappointing the majority of favourite books to film transfer has been). He attended a beat camp alongside others from the film in order to immerse themselves in the culture of the time, and to bond. I’m hoping the film that emerges still holds that heart.

    The important thing to note about Riley is that he hasn’t just jumped on any chance to appear onscreen, he knows he can afford to maintain a certain standard, and that the offers are all there off the back of his role in Control. It’s an artists integrity that is so rare in this day and age and something I greatly admire.

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  • Tidy understairs cupboard/tidy mind.

    On Friday I got home to find the house was a mess. I know that sounds like the sentence of a mum but that is essentially my role at home. It’s complicated. The problem is that there are four men and only one of them has OCD, the others have twigged this and know that everything will be done to a far greater level than any of their efforts if they just leave it for long enough. I get fed up with stacks of stuff laying about everywhere that we don’t need or use. I believe Ben at Life Rapture is at least partly responsible for opening my mind to minimalist living. While I haven’t gone to the impressive extent he has (I’m sorry Ben, I love paperback books and vinyl too much) it did make me realise that the amount of ‘stuff’ in our lives is disproportionate to the amount we use and need. It’s very difficult proving this to people. I’ll give you an example that I’ve probably used before.
    In March I was introduced to Charity:Water who run a campaign where you can donate your birthday to their charity so instead of your friends buying you things that are nice but that aren’t essential to your life you get them to donate to Charity:Water (the standard donation is your age in pounds) and then you get updates with what your money has done. I shared this news with a group of people I work with one lunchtime, and told them how annoyed I was that I’d only learnt about the charity a month after my birthday. One of them said:
    ‘Yeah, I’d rather have the stuff’.

    So that’s the kind of thought pattern I’m up against when I say that we don’t need all of the objects and material items we surround ourselves with, how the stuff you own ends up owning you (thanks Tyler Durden) and so I set to work emptying out the understairs cupboard. My dad hates it when I get in these obsessive cleaning moods because he has to orchestrate otherwise I will literally bin everything and he has a habit of leaving MOT certificates, life insurance documents, money, just laying about and I’ll sweep away the lot if he turns his back.

    I am slowly teaching him though, in the same way I was slowly taught. You can just take one small area, and you can clear out 90% of the stuff stored in it. You don’t think about the bigger picture of how to clear out a four bedroom house, you just think of that cupboard under the stairs and everything else will fall into place. ‘No possessions’ as John once said.

  • Another week being me.

    For the first Monday in a long time I’ve woken up grouchy. For weeks I’ve pledged about the power of living right and positive attitudes but today I overslept my alarm and didn’t go for a run. Now I’m on my way to work without the chance to burn some of my nervous energy off.

    I don’t think it helps that I have that ‘Call Me Maybe’ song stuck in my head. I spent yesterday listening to covers and parodies of it and it’s clearly effected me. For those who haven’t completed their studies in this area the best one is the Star Wars edit.

    Brilliant. I just walked in on a bus driver using the toilet. This is going to be one of those days isn’t it.

  • Fill my pockets up with sand.

    I’m sat with a cup of coffee and my own recordings as accompaniment to my writing.
    I had a sort of lie in this morning, which is highly unusual for me. Maybe the nights of five or six hours sleep had finally caught up with me. Maybe I’ve been doing too much as people insist on telling me. I’m happy in it though.

    I’ve managed to write another five hundred words of the story that I’m working on. It’s not a complete idea yet, I don’t know if it will become a novel, I have quite a broad concept and bits I’m borrowing from The Great Gatsby. It’s nice to be writing prose again, I’ve been caught up in any number of other things recently.

    I managed to get one of my songs finished yesterday, to a degree anyway. I’m sure I’ll spot something and take it back into my bedroom studio for more work, but in theory it should be the first track off the album I’ve promised myself I want to write, record, produce and self release in some way or another. It’s called Bienvenue and I’ll try and link it onto this page for anyone interested.

    Right, I’ve got writing to do, and then a girlfriend to collect from work.

     

     

  • I will not bend myself out of shape.

    I have a problem.
    No, not that one, I’ve got ointment for that.
    I have a problem in that I place far too much pressure on myself and my ‘artistic endeavours’. I realise that’s a wanky term hence the speech marks. I’m stuck in a horrible loop where what I want to do is just slightly out of my grip. I can’t become a full time writer/musician/journo unless I put in an awful lot of time and work but the thought of needing to get it all done makes me rush and as a result the output is never as good as it could be.

    Example: I keep recording songs. I don’t know what it will all come to but I keep recording songs. When I listen back to them they’re never as good as they are in my head and I rerecord them just to find the same result the following day. I wouldn’t put myself down as being a perfectionist (I mean look at me) but for some reason I just can’t get the sound in my head transcribed to recording. Basically I have about fifteen songs that aren’t quite ready to go. I think I need to borrow a  pair of ears, mine aren’t cutting it anymore. I could just keep looping the same thing like Dante’s seventh circle of hell.

    Meanwhile I have my novel to think about. I sent off to one agency who rejected it and now it’s in limbo. All it would take is for me to print off some more, and send them off but the pressure comes in and stops me even doing that. Basically I’m treading water in a massive way and I need a slap round the face to sort me out. I need a PA or a secretary to sit me down and tell me what I’m doing, in what order I’m doing it and when I need to stop, because I will run myself into the ground trying to get something right when it just needs to sit. I know today’s post is a massive soundboard, I just need to get it out of my head.

    I need to write this down.

  • Lights. Camera. Improv.

    Those of you who move in my circles will know I spent yesterday freaking out about my comedy improv show last night. Those of you who follow me on Twitter will know I spent yesterday freaking out about my comedy improv show last night. I think it was a fairly open forum of fear. As usual it was completely unfounded, and I managed to make it through the show.

    One of my favourite things about improv is that if you fuck it up then it’s funny. This means when you walk out under the hot lights for the first game -Die Story – and you jabber nonsense and the audience laughs at you and shouts ‘DIE’ you’ve won. Once that first game was out of the way I felt a lot more at home on the stage. I love every part of it, I like the performance, I like the fact that at times I make jokes that I can hear individual people laugh at, I like sitting out of particular games and watching how my Improv pals take to it like a duck to water.

    The next game I played was Chain Murder which is like a mime version of Chinese whispers crossed with Cluedo. Four people play. Three people leave the room. The remaining person is given an occupation, a room in a house and a murder weapon by the audience. One person is brought back into the room and the first person has to mine the occupation, room and murder weapon to the second player. The whole time you can’t use words but can talk in gibberish if it helps. Once player two feels he knows what has been mimed to him he has to perform for person three but using different actions to what he has seen in order to purvey what he believes he has seen. I was the second person in and worked out all three. Somewhere between my interpretation and the end of the line it went wrong but it doesn’t matter, because the audience get a laugh out of it. There’s something incredibly rewarding about miming the occupation; gaenocologist, in front of sixty people.

    The next game I played was Props where one at a time we got up, took a prop from a table at the back of the stage and used it in a way that wasn’t it’s intended purpose. A giant lollipop becomes a guitar or a tennis racket. A green wig becomes a radioactive Santa beard or wild pubes. It took me a while to snap to attention. The scary thing about Props is that you are on your own, and trying to put across something you literally threw together in seconds. There’s nobody to back you up, you just have to hope that it’s as funny in your head as it is to the audience, and if it isn’t brilliant, you fucked up, and they laughed. It took a while but I came up with a few good ones. I momentarily got caught up watching the way my friends manipulated the props at hand to use them for any number of other things.

    The last game I played was Key Words where the audience write down phrases and sentences and we pick them at random from a glass and then have to justify it in the scene we are performing. There were just two of us in, and the audience chose to set it in a library which was brilliant for the game. It meant that any random sentence we pulled out could be justified as being a quote from a book or a title, it flowed really nicely. I even managed to pull out my girlfriend’s suggestion. I then sat back to watch the rest of the show. I was spent.

    What I love about improv is the way different things can be interpreted. It’s a wonderful example of the differences between people. Some of the suggestions we were given last night would become a performance that you could never write, it’s stream of consciousness, it flows. I like watching people perform because I try to chain together how they got to that point, it’s interesting to see where someone’s mind goes when they open up. I am very much looking forward to the next course of workshops, and the next show, regardless of how much self imposed suffering I’ll deal with beforehand. I’d like to thank everyone who was there last night. Without an audience it’s just ten people running round in circles making dick and fart jokes so the fact we have family and friends happy to give up an evening to us is wonderful. Without the other ‘players’ I would have been a floor bound jabbering wreck. Without Jonny nobody would have had a clue what we were doing or where we were going (thank god for that clipboard) and without Lee none of us would be able to get up and do it. Thank you.

  • Mancrush Friday – Andrew Garfield.

    Oh Andrew with your gentle face.
    Oh Andrew your hair is nice, you look so tousled, want a cuddle?
    I probably shouldn’t have seen The Amazing Spiderman this week, it’s done weird things to my mind tank. Today I am briefly going to outline why Garfield is such a flipping dreamboat.

    It feels as if he has been on the slow burn, as far as I know Spiderman was his first lead role. Scratch that, he was the male lead in Never Let Me Go right? Although he appeared in a couple of big budget pictures it doesn’t feel like he was thrown in your face as the new poster boy (like for example Zac Efron was).

    The fact is that Garfield not only holds his own as Spiderman, one of the big American franchises, he also makes you forget that anyone else has done it. That’s the mark of a good actor. While I’d hope in time to see a bit more range in him what we are seeing is a brilliant emerging actor.

    I think his poster will be on my wall for years to come. That might be a joke.

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  • The wonder of (metaphorically) shitting yourself.

    Tonight I have a show. I have definitely been trying not to think about it, because the longer I go thinking about it, the worse I physically feel. In the run up to a performance I get ripped apart by stainless steel winged butterflies, I feel sick and I go and hide in the toilets.

    People always worry that I’m going to bottle it, freak out or be too ill to perform but it’s never happened. I’ve always done the best I can and I’m always abuzz of excitement afterwards. The reason that I metaphorically shit myself is that I care. I want people to enjoy what I’m doing, I get so wrapped up in the thought of performing well that it virtually cripples me. This goes for Improvised comedy (which is what I’m doing tonight), playing guitar, singing, giving a speech, I have to fall to pieces in the closing hours to bring it back together.

    I have complete faith in my abilities which is why I feel able to do this to myself. I know that I can crumble all I want but when I step onstage something else jumps in and takes over. I know that reads like incredibly fanciful bullshit but it’s the only way I can think to describe it. As soon as I’m
    in front of lights and crowds I essentially black out and it all becomes automatic. I can never recall exact moments or specifics, I just do it.

    I think that as soon as I stop getting torn up performing then I’ll stop, I always want to worry that I can’t do what I know I can.

  • The importance of dropping out.

    Last night I decided that I wasn’t going to rush about trying to prepare things for a deadline entirely of my own fantasy, I decided I wasn’t going to go for a run, I decided I wasn’t going to waste hours on the Internet, I just wanted to get some munchies and watch a film with my brother.
    Turn on. Tune in. Drop out.

    The film in question was See No Evil, Hear No Evil which somehow young ‘EdWood’ as he insists on spelling his name had never seen before. We packed our coffee table with Pringooooals (the Euro 2012 promo packs of Pringles), milkshake, Cornettos, Jaffa Cakes and for some reason sushi.

    During the film I realised that it is rare for me to let go like that, to not make any plans, or any attempt to organise or tidy things and it was down time, it was resting, it was really nice. In the chaos of our lives it is hard for Ed and I to spend any time so 97 minutes watching a film together is exactly the kind of thing required. For anyone who hasn’t seen the film it’s a brilliantly ridiculous comedy starring Gene Wilder and Richard Pryor. They witness a murder however Pryor is blind and Wilder is deaf and they are forced to set out on one of the greatest and sweetest buddy films of the decade to prove their innocence.

    I think what I’m trying to say is that it isn’t the end of the world if you have a night off, work can wait, just take two hours to yourself, find something to make you laugh and find someone you can share that with. It’s one of the few things we’ve got.

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  • What’s the story?

    I spent the weekend trying to write and record music, a project that I eventually gave up because I figured I will never get it to sound as good as it will in my head. I can’t work out why I’m not satisfied with anything I’m doing at the moment. Maybe it’s a sign that I need to change tact or that I need to put in more practice or something, all I know is that I’m wasting hours on ideas that are obviously not as realised as I had first thought.

    I don’t think it helps that I’m not particularly settled at the moment, I want to move around the whole time and that’s obviously not possible if you’re supposed to be working. Maybe something will give and that tiny shift will enhance everything else. Here’s to hoping anyway.