2024 – week one

Well, here we are. One week into the best year of my life.
Well, I’m pretty sure it has to be. I got everything lined up and in position in 2023. This is the year that works out the best for me.

I’m sober. That’s new for me. I’ve spent a lot of the year drunk. I don’t offer that up as being a good or bad thing. It’s just a fact. I’ve been drinking a lot.
I like drinking.
I like who I am when I’m drinking.
I like the romance and the tragedy around it all.
That’s why it is nice to stop. I don’t know how long we will carry on for, but for now, I feel good for being so sober.

I’m running. I hadn’t run anywhere in three months. I was bulking, you see. That means I get to eat McDonalds at least three days a week and don’t do any cardio.
I like running.
I like who I am when I’m running.
I like the romance and the tragedy around it all.
We’ve been doing Couch To 5K together. Between those, I’ve been seeing how quickly I can do 5km anyway, like some kind of sick test against my knees and the extra kilos I’m carrying right now.
I don’t know how long we will carry on for, but for now, I feel good being a runner.

I’ve stopped using social media. I filled dead air and my life by dragging down and refreshing those feeds. It’s addictive and much of the time it is toxic. I don’t need it and for the most part, I don’t care for the people I see on there.
I hate social media.
I hate who I am when I’m on social media.
I hate the tragedy of it all. I’ll go back. We both know I will. But for now….. I’m enjoying who I am when I’m away.
I’m still allowed to exist in a ghost mode on Pinterest and Reddit, but nothing where I’m evaluated by anyone I haven’t had the foresight to block.

Right now, I’m doing all the cliche January things and I’m really enjoying it.

I’ve not smoked in a week either. Not a vape, not a cigarette, not a crack pipe.

Who cares how much of it sticks. If it feels good, do it (taken from the Big Beat Manifesto).